Neither Here Nor There

ABOUT John Suddath

John Suddath
It took 40 years to write Neither Here Nor There that is a chronicle of my struggle to reconcile being gay and being a Christian. One reviewer described the book as brutally honest, which I interpreted to mean that I didn't make any excuses or leave out any of the emotional crises that I f More...



A memoir of a 7-decade struggle against guilt and fear to accept myself as both gay and as a Christian. It was a long journey with numerous detours and dead-ends, but in the end I gained some insight of what it means to be fully human and willing to take risks.

Neither Here Nor There is a journey of self exploration and emotion. How do you become yourself, when everyone around you and your very moral code tells you that you can not be who you feel you are? How do you live a life in fear of discovery? Guilt, fear and self image clash in a battle of decades of soul searching as the reader joins one man's insights into survival against the conflicts of the soul.