About
I am a 30 year old mother of two. I have been writing poetry since I was about 12. I have been through a lot of traumatic experiences in my lifetime and I have never been one that is able to really talk about my feelings with people. I always have this fear that if I open up to people then they will see me as weak or something, so, I started writing my feelings down on paper in order to get them out so that they wouldn't be locked inside. I haven't had the emotional support that most people get from their families. My dad left when I was 3 and even though my mom was in my life, I was the parent in the situation. I wasn't brought up to believe I could trust my parents and in turn I have had a very tough time with trusting anyone. If you can't trust your own parents, how can you trust someone else, right? I had to deal with a lot of bad things, with only myself to get me through it and I survived. I decided to share my poems with the world because I have finally figured out how to move on with my past and I am hoping that my story can help someone else that may be going through some of the same things.
A King Under Siege: Book One of The Plantagenet Legacy
Description
<p>Richard II found himself under siege not once, but twice in his minority. Crowned king at age ten, he was only fourteen when the Peasants' Revolt terrorized London. But he proved himself every bit the Plantagenet successor, facing Wat Tyler and the rebels when all seemed lost. Alas, his triumph was short-lived, and for the next ten years he struggled to assert himself against his uncles and increasingly hostile nobles. Just like in the days of his great-grandfather Edward II, vengeful magnates strove to separate him from his friends and advisors, and even threatened to depose him if he refused to do their bidding. The Lords Appellant, as they came to be known, purged the royal household with the help of the Merciless Parliament. They murdered his closest allies, leaving the King alone and defenseless. He would never forget his humiliation at the hands of his subjects. Richard's inability to protect his adherents would haunt him for the rest of his life, and he vowed that next time, retribution would be his.</p>
Story Behind The Book
Growing up, I had a lot of painful experiences and nobody to help me through them. My parents never showed that they cared about me in any way. I was led to believe that I couldn't trust my own parents, so how was I supposed to trust anyone else? I have always kept my feelings buried deep inside to be dealt with by yours truly, because that is the way it always was growing up. Since I couldn't bring myself to trust anyone enough to let go of all the painful feelings that were hidden inside, I started writing and poetry is what I decided to write. By writing my feelings down on paper, they were kept for my own eyes only and it got them out of me so that they weren't building up into a crazy rage. I had an outburst of anger that was so bad it landed me in a mental institution when I was 13. I blew up and beat up a tree and a truck, which did some damage to my body, so they thought I was a danger to myself. I only spent 6 months there though because they got to "the root of the problem" you could say. After that experience, I really started writing quite a bit because I didn't want to go back lol Over the past couple of years, I have finally figured out how to let go of the things that happened in the past. I forgave my mom for allowing all of the painful experiences, I don't dwell on the past anymore, and I finally learned how to let people in (a little bit) I decided to share my book with the world in hopes of helping neglectful and emotionally abusive parents to get a glimpse into the mind of the child they are damaging by those things, and also to hopefully give hope to a child that might be experiencing these things to see that they can and must fight through the pain, whether by themselves like I did, or with help that is available.
