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CHAPTER 1

Cory couldn't shake an odd feeling — like a hint of doom lurking on the horizon as she peered out her office window, at another glorious day in southern California. Hummingbirds hovered over the red and yellow rose bushes in search of choice nectar and a gentle breeze brushed the quivering leaves on the palm tree. Despite the tranquil scene, she stiffened in expectation.

The doorbell rang, jolting her in surprise as no one was expected until a few hours later. She checked the security video screen. Recognizing her postman, she opened the door. He handed her a certified letter requiring her signature. Although the sender's name was unfamiliar, she signed for the letter.

Seated at her uncluttered teak desk, she tore open the sealed envelope, and gasped as she read:

Doctor Cohen,

This is to alert you that your bad advice has caused me grave consequences for which you are professionally responsible.

My attorney states you have committed malpractice. He recommends I request a five thousand dollar certified bank check from you made out to CAROLE ROY and sent to P.O.B. 666, Oceanside, CA.

You have one week to stop the case from going forward. I assure you, if you don't comply with this request, you will regret it.

The cost of my litigation will be your responsibility. Your income, your reputation, and your license are at stake.

Your former patient, Carole Roy

Startled, and almost overcome by a queasy feeling, her hands trembled as she placed the letter on her desk.

The sender's name was totally unfamiliar to her. After reading the letter again, she figured it must be a hoax — mischief from a sociopath, a blackmailer, probably sending the same letter to select professionals practicing in wealthy areas across the country, gambling on the possibility someone would just pay to avoid the hassle.

Cory strongly doubted that any intelligent person would fall for such a scheme.

Although she regarded the letter as a threat without a shred of substance, she knew she had to do something about it as soon as possible.

She thumbed through her file cabinet crammed with the last seven years of patient records as required by the California Psychology Licensing Board. She had carefully stored her files within partitions representing each of the last seven years. Every case that had ended during that time frame was filed alphabetically within the appropriate section. It took her over half an hour to reveal, just as she had figured, that no one by the name Carole Roy had been her patient in the past seven years.

Cory shook her head. Perhaps a person identifying herself as Carole Roy had made an appointment, but had not shown up for it.

She ran her fingers down the pages of her current appointment book dated from the last five months, but the name did not appear.

She whipped out her last two years of appointment books from the file drawer. Finally, she found "Carole Roy" scrawled with a fine line drawn across it next to a phone number. NS — the notation she used for "no show" — appeared next to Wednesday 4:00 p.m. exactly two years ago.

Out of curiosity, she called the number. It belonged to a tailor unfamiliar with anyone named Carole Roy.

"Has anyone else called asking for this person?" Cory asked.

"No. I'd remember. We don't get many calls, being new to the neighborhood," the man said.

Cory phoned several local colleagues and a few practicing in wealthy areas across the country. She figured a blackmailer would target practitioners with deep pockets. If her calls weren't fruitful, she would have to fish in a larger pool — an annoying, time-consuming task.

Cory called fifteen psychologists. None were available to speak with her. She left messages requesting a call back on her mobile, hoping to learn if any were afflicted by the same bug and were willing to discuss the situation.

Blackmail was considered a crime, a statutory offense. If she could establish a high volume of complaints of attempted blackmail made to mental health professionals, it could result in quicker action from authorities and prevent future threats.

If she were the only professional known to have received such a threat, she would immediately consult her malpractice insurance attorney.

Re-reading the certified letter, she stopped at the paragraph citing the post office box number 666 and smiled. "666" equals sick, sick, sick," she murmured. Chuckling, she began to feel better.

Cory figured the blackmailer could be a mentally ill person who sought retribution for some negative psychotherapy experience.

More likely, the blackmailer learned about billing and records and malpractice in some other way, and regarded a psychologist as an easy target. Perhaps the blackmailer had worked in the billing department of a health care facility.

Powerless to immediately change the situation, Cory realized she needed to distract herself from worrying about it. She would take the advice she gave to patients: worry is a counterproductive waste of energy.

Glad for the extra set of running gear she stored at the office, she decided to spend the free time relieving her tension by running on the beach. She expected to come back energized by endorphins, and better able to cope with the distressing blackmail letter.

Tucking her long, black hair into a ponytail, she noticed it was the proper length for a donation to the Wigs for Kids project. Her good deed — a traditional mitzvah would uplift her spirits. She grabbed the phone and made an appointment.

Wig makers preferred Asian hair. Cory's contributions were reminders of her bi-racial heritage — a Japanese mother she had never known, who preferred an international musical career to a family.

Cory never experienced anger toward the unknown birth mother; rather she felt privileged to be raised by her loving paternal Jewish grandparents.

Just as she was about to change her clothes, she heard a buzz at the front door.

The image of a pale young woman with a distraught expression on her face appeared on the security video screen.

"May I help you?" Cory asked

"I so much hope you can. I'm desperate and need to see you right away. Ann referred me," pleaded the woman.

Responding to what could be an emergency, Cory buzzed her in and hurried to greet her at the front door.

The young woman followed Cory from the cozy reception room into the office.

Petite, with small facial features, brown eyes and dark blonde hair neatly rolled into a bun, she appeared to be in her twenties. Her black suit and white blouse were well tailored and somber, next to her pale face.

She scanned the room, furnished with teak chairs, table, and desk, and ran her hand over the top of the soft black leather couch. She seemed unduly cautious of her surroundings, like an animal sniffing around a new environment to determine if it was safe.

She paused to examine Cory's framed credentials on the wall. Supposedly reassured, she turned to the books lining the shelves as though shopping for the right one that would hold a solution to her vexing problem.

From desperation to uncertainty about her surroundings, she seated herself opposite Cory, leaned forward, and rested her hands on her lap.

Pad and pen on her lap, Cory asked, "What's your name?" "That's just it. I don't know who I am."

CHAPTER 2

Cory took a deep breath. "Please explain."

"At eight this morning, an alarm clock awakened me. When I opened my eyes, I was shocked to find myself in an unfamiliar room. I felt so weird — so incredibly strange.

"At first I thought I was dreaming — or sleepwalking. My heart thumped so loudly, I felt the vibration in my ears. I leaped out of bed and feverishly searched the room. I opened the closet and saw several garments. At first I wasn't sure if they were mine, but they seemed to be my size and my style. The shoes fit me, too."

She pulled out a tissue from the nearby box, and dabbed her moist brow. "I'm terrified. I don't know what happened to me." Trembling, she hugged herself and rocked back and forth like a baby wrapped in the safety of her mother's arms.

"I also found several books. The titles were vaguely familiar. I skimmed through a few to see if they stirred my memory, but they didn't. Perhaps they were new and I hadn't read them yet — or I'm really going crazy. This is too, too scary."

"Your experience doesn't mean you've gone crazy, but it certainly is frightening. Did you check other rooms in the house?"

"Yes. At first I was afraid to leave the room, scared of what I'd find. I forced myself to peek out the door. I listened for some sounds of life, like footsteps, voices, running water, but I heard nothing. Although it was quiet, I tiptoed out and looked around. All the rooms were empty. It's as if everyone moved out while I was asleep."

"Who moved out?"

"I don't know." She buried her face in her hands and sobbed.

"I understand this is frustrating, but you will regain your memory. You said Ann referred you. Can you recall anything about that?"

"No, I don't remember anything at all. I found your card in a purse. Ann's name is written on the back." She pulled out a card from her pocket and handed it to Cory.

During many years of practice, Cory had never seen anyone with this kind of amnesia. She had treated people who had forgotten bits and pieces of important memory, but this was different. She knew the causes could be from a head injury, drug or alcohol usage, or a traumatic event.

Fortunately, a highly respected medical group was a few steps away in the next building.

"Did you find anything to identify you in the room?"

The young woman removed an expensive looking leather wallet from her purse and handed it to Cory. It contained a driver's license and a Visa card both bearing the name Ashley P. Hogan.

"Ashley Hogan?" Cory asked.

"I've run that name through my head over and over, but it means nothing to me," the young woman replied.

Cory examined the license bearing a photo of an excellent likeness of the woman in front of her.

"The DMV has a thumb print on file which could prove if you are Ashley Hogan."

"DMV?"

"Yes. The Department of Motor Vehicles."

"Oh, yes, of course. Must I go there to be fingerprinted?"

Cory shook her head. "No. When I needed my fingerprints to renew my psychology license, a local store with a special machine took my fingerprints and filed them with the FBI and the Department of Justice."

Ashley shook her head. "I know in my heart I'm not a criminal and I don't want to go through all that."

"It is a nuisance, but it would reassure you of your identity. An easier way is for a nearby notary agent to take your thumb print, but you'd still need a government agency to identify it."

"Suppose they do verify that I am Ashley P. Hogan — so what? It wouldn't bring back my memory."

"That's true, but it is a starting place." Cory replied.

"I don't know why, but I'm afraid of government authorities."

Cory considered the possibility that Ashley's loss of memory was due to having witnessed something dreadful. Dreadful enough to block a major part of her memory, but still keeping a self-protective sliver.

Cory loved solving mysteries and this one presented a huge challenge.

"In the house did you notice a computer, tablet, or any electronic device such as a cell phone that stores data?" Cory asked. "It may help jog your memory."

"No. The only room furnished was the one that must be mine — judging from the clothes — otherwise the place was totally empty. If I had a phone, I'd have called before coming here." Ashley's voice held a tone of exasperation.

"I understand your frustration. I'll make a copy of your driver license for your chart. Would you allow me to contact a former FBI agent — now a trustworthy private investigator? Perhaps he could find information about you."

Ashley nodded and without hesitation signed her name on the release form.

"Instinctively, you knew how to sign your name," Cory said. "This is a really good sign."

The young woman shrugged. She began to sob, cupping her hands over her face.

Cory handed her a tissue and watched the frustrated young woman dab at her tears.

"But I have no memory of a past. I don't know anything about myself."

"You have an excellent chance to recover your memory. Amnesia — a loss of memory — is treatable."

"What causes it?"

Cory hesitated, unwilling to make the woman more anxious. "Perhaps a bad drug, or too much alcohol."

"I didn't notice any alcohol or pill bottles. I told you the house was empty apart from the room where I had awakened."

Cory considered the possibility that Ashley could have been given an injectable substance like scopolamine. It was unlikely that whoever injected her would leave evidence behind.

It seemed more likely Ashley had witnessed a traumatic event or had sustained a head injury.

"Are you feeling pain anywhere?"

The tearful woman shook her head.

Cory took notes. "Are you experiencing any physical symptoms?"

"My heart is still racing. I feel chilled and a bit weak."

"Probably because you're frightened. I'll refer you to Doctor Green in the next building for a complete physical exam."

Cory trusted Mimi Green's medical acumen. She'd know the best way to proceed would likely include blood work and a urine sample. The neurological exam, functional MRI or a CT scan, would probably occur at one of the many hospitals nearby.

"Do you think I may have a brain tumor?"

"It's doubtful. Let's not consider that at the moment."

"What else can it be?" A pained expression etched deep furrows on her forehead.

Cory hesitated. "Sometimes amnesia occurs after a person witnesses a traumatic event."

Ashley shuddered. "I can't imagine what horror that could be."

"Let's not go there yet. Amnesia may be protective for now."

"No. I've got to remember. I must. I must. This is hell," Ashley cried.

Cory handed her the box of tissues. "I'm confident that your memory will return. If the loss is from a drug or too much alcohol, your amnesia could clear up in hours or a few days."

"What if I witnessed something horrendous?"

"You'll grow stronger. You'll be able to deal with it."

Cory called Mimi Green's private line and reached her immediately. Fortunately, Mimi had the time to provide a thorough exam after Cory completed her session with Ashley.

"We're in luck. Dr. Green can see you after we finish our session."

"I'm very grateful to you for setting this up for me so quickly," Ashley said, trembling. "Frankly, I'm afraid of the exam and the results."

"I can imagine how difficult the situation is for you. I assure you that the exam is not intrusive. It doesn't hurt. You're in competent hands with Doctor Green. I have a light schedule and will help you through this trying time."

"That is comforting. Thank you," Ashley said.

Anticipating that she would gain more insight about this woman from her graphic productions than the amnesic woman could otherwise provide, Cory handed her a clipboard, a sketchpad pad, and a pencil.

"Please draw a house on page one, a person on page two, and a tree on page three."

Ashley took the materials and began to sketch, her furrowed brow softening with each stroke of the pencil. Like an accomplished artist on her own turf, she made bold, confident strokes, lost in an altered state of consciousness. She took more time on the task, much longer than most others confronted with the same assignment. It seemed to help her relax into a familiar activity.

Cory smiled as she witnessed the telling transformation.

When Ashley finished, she calmly handed the drawing materials to Cory.

"An artist finds drawing cathartic," Cory remarked.

"I'm glad you asked me to do that. It felt right. It felt like me ... whoever I am ... like I'm discovering a part of myself."

"We've made a fine start. We know you're a very good artist — perhaps an accomplished one."

The amateur detective, a role Cory frequently assumed, had surfaced. Detection was the part of psychology she found most intriguing.

"You're a very interesting young woman. When you came into my office, despite your anxiety, you took the time to examine my credentials. It suggests you're a cautious, intelligent person. Ann had given you my card, so you probably met at the university because she spent much of her time there. Perhaps she mentioned she worked for me. Maybe you asked for my card because you or someone close to you had a problem."

(Continues…)

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Excerpted from "Vanished"
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